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MONSTERS: A Collage Of You, chapter 6


I could tell you hundreds of things but this is the most important quote to me; “We can and we will only see when we are ready to see it.”

Here are the stages he will put you through:  

The Over-evaluation Phase

A Narcissist is very careful when choosing a target. Typically, they will choose a victim based on their status. They must be attractive, popular, rich or extremely gifted in some area. The greater the status, the higher the value the Narcissist places on the Supply derived.

The Devaluation Stage

The Over-Evaluation phase, if you’re dealing with a Somatic Narcissist, usually lasts anywhere from a few weeks to a couple of months, just long enough for the Narcissist to be confident that they have secured their target’s love and devotion. Unbeknownst to the target, what they were witnessing in the early phase was the Narcissist’s false self. In this second phase, the mask comes off and the Narcissist starts to reveal their true colours.

The Discard Phase

It is almost baffling to watch the ease at which a Narcissist can pull away from his partners. Many targets are left asking themselves, “Did he ever love me? Did I mean anything to him?” The simple answer is no. No one means anything to him. Women are only a means to an end – to obtain the much needed Narcissistic Supply. Once your usefulness has run its course, you will be discarded abruptly and cruelly, without warning.

Savannah Grey

 The most important thing for victims is to know that it was never about them. That it’s not their fault. That he does this to all the women in his life. If they understand this, the healing gets much easier!

By Exposing The Narcopath

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His proclaiming of love was the enchanting spell, his words of praise and adoration tantalizing my mind and tasting like such sweet seductive wine. I drink up every drop knowing I really should have stopped. But what’s one more after those little blues that I’ve already popped? It’s all the same in his sick addicting twisted game. Oh how I love the way he whispers my name…He says let your demons go, they’ll never really be tamed. Just join me on this ride one last time, let me claim you to be mine. Now take my hand, and let me show you your very own version of Wonderland. I promise it will be grand. Click ⬇️ to check out her Instagram:


Characteristics of Narcissistic Mothers

It’s about secret things. The Destructive Narcissistic Parent creates a child that only exists to be an extension of her self. It’s about body language. It’s about disapproving glances. It’s about vocal tone. It’s very intimate. And it’s very powerful. It’s part of who the child is. ~ Chris
1. Everything she does is deniable 

2. She violates your boundaries 

3. She favoritizes 

4. She undermines 

5. She demeans, criticizes and denigrates 

6. She makes you look crazy. 

7. She’s envious 

8. She’s a liar in too many ways to count. 

9. She has to be the center of attention all the time. 

10. She manipulates your emotions in order to feed on your pain. 

11. She’s selfish and willful. 

12. She’s self-absorbed. 

13. She is insanely defensive and is extremely sensitive to any criticism. 

14. She terrorized. 

15. She’s infantile and petty. 

16. She’s aggressive and shameless. 

17. She “parentifies.”

18. She’s exploitative. 

19. She projects. 

20. She is never wrong about anything. 

21. She seems to have no awareness that other people even have feelings. 

22. She blames. 

23. She destroys your relationships. 

24. As a last resort she goes pathetic. 

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My heart was impregnated with incredulous lies. All I wanted to do was lie down and cry. Your last words on constant repeat telling me don’t give up hope there could still be you and me. Even though I’m aware what your true motives are, I willingly hand you the knife to reopen the scar. Sometimes I wonder how I made it this far then I recall those lovely blue bars. They’re perfect for masking what’s really in your heart and sometimes keep your sanity from falling apart. But they too are a demon to be shamed. The same sick addiction that I have in playing your game. I only want to be loved the same don’t you hear me silently screaming your name? As I lie here just wanting to die, I wonder if you’ll feel me slip away during the night. Or simply say- what a tragedy, didn’t you there was hope for you and I? Knowing very well I was the creator of my own catastrophe and lived on the fringe of your scintillating lies. But this one led to my demise.

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It’s not uncommon for a person, once they experience a relationship with a narcissist, to vehemently want to avoid or prevent a repeat.

What best guarantees that your relationship wont turn into another dance of codependency and narcissism?

In part, your success has to do with identifying certain red flags, based on understanding what narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is (versus narcissistic traits), as well as what codependency is, and in particular the ones that unwittingly yet directly feed and supply energy to narcissism.

The best protection or what best repels narcissism, however, has to do with what traits naturally repel a narcissist, and those are traits of persons committed to living and connecting authentically to life in and around them.

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Narcissism Vs. Self-esteem

Narcissism encourages envy and hostile rivalries.                                                          …where self-esteem supports compassion and cooperation.

Narcissism favors dominance.                    …where self-esteem acknowledges equality.

Narcissism involves arrogance.               …where self-esteem reflects humility.

Narcissism is affronted by criticism.      …where self-esteem is enhanced by feedback.

Narcissism makes it necessary to pull down others in order to stand above them.                                                          Self-esteem leads to perceiving every human being as a person of value in a world full of meaning.

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                   FLYING MONKEY

In popular psychology, a flying monkey is someone who does the narcissist’s bidding to inflict additional torment to the narcissist’s victim. 

It might consist of spying on the victim, spreading gossip, threatening, painting the narcissistic victim and their target as the perpetrator. 

Despite this, the narcissist does not hesitate to make flying monkeys their scapegoats when and if needed.

By Once Upon a Narcissist

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Multitudes of people who’ve implemented No Contact with their Narcissistic partner will inevitably ask the question, Does the Narcissist miss me?
Why? Because they are often consumed with missing the Narcissist, and they wonder if he or she has the same feelings of loss and sorrow…perhaps wondering if there’s a chance to rekindle the relationship.
The short–yet excruciating–answer is no. When we wonder if (or assume that) the Narcissist misses us, we are projecting our feelings of loss and longing onto them. Narcissists do not think the way we do, nor experience the same emotions. They operate solely from ego, so the usual emotions of missing someone or feelings of sadness and regret typically don’t affect them.

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“You were forcing me to feel guilty about having wounds, you pretended my emotions weren’t real, you dramatized your most tiny problems until they looked more important than my whole life struggles, you punished me over and over again for ‘not following your rules’ and you have the fucking nerve to pretend that I was the toxic one.”
by Furious Goldfish


“Narcissists want to receive good things, but are burdened or annoyed about giving them.

Narcissists are often happy to dish out negative treatment of all kinds, but tend to melt down when a hint of negativity blows in their direction, regardless of the reason for it.

So they like to GET good stuff, but don’t like to give it.”

Taking the good to leave you an empty space to fill up with their negatives.

From the blog of Mel Blogs Gluten Free


Monsters: Chapter 4 Dancing With The Devil

I have never heard anyone ask for the definition of “Monster.” There seems to be an unspoken understanding when it comes to labeling someone a monster.

1 a : an animal or plant of abnormal form or structure
b : one who deviates from normal or acceptable behavior or character
2 : a threatening force
3 a : an animal of strange or terrifying shape
b : one unusually large for its kind
4 : something monstrous; especially : a person of unnatural or extreme ugliness, deformity, wickedness, or cruelty
5 : one that is highly successful
Origin: Middle English monstre, from Anglo-French, from Latin monstrum omen, monster, from monēre to warn — more at mind.


I’ve danced with many monsters in my lifetime. I’ve loved them and learned from them. I’ve worked along side them (peers) and treat them (patients); except, there is no treatment or cure for them.
Until the recent past, I found myself putting forth great effort in trying to understand them. I wanted to understand,” WHY?” And also what the fuck? How the fuck? What’s wrong with them? Why would they…? How could they?
My mentor and colleagues told me in different ways,”What you’re doing wrong is attempting to make sense of their behavior.” Or “Remember, the ‘why’ is irrelevant.”
It makes sense, now. Although, when it finally clicked, I felt disgusted. Disgusted at my own ignorance; having learned how to Tango with this breed of human, in-vivo; up close and personal.
On the bright side, it is never too late to respect realization when it sets in.

I ask this of myself frequently.
I am locked in with predaceous men 40 hours a week. Men who stand before me and tower. They sit across the table from me in a 12 by 12 room. I walk side by side while conversing with them. I am responsible for 30 men; but hundreds know me and greet me by name…and I am not frightened.
I am not afraid because I’ve learned how to read every nuance of the behavior I longed to understand. I can predict what they will do and say. It is easy for me because essentially; monsters are all the same.
They want something. Whether it’s tangible, psychological or both. They want.

I become a chameleon.
When interacting with a serial rapist my brain works like a serial rapist. During an exchange with a pedophile; I use the brain of a pedophile. While conversing with narcissistic, borderline or antisocial personality disordered individuals, I become …

Predators/monsters study prey. I have studied predators for most of my life and have always been adept at spotting them; even as a child. I am in their head and predicting, quite successfully, what they will do next. After a forty hour week of living in their heads I wonder whether I am like them.
I need to decompress.
I am not like them because I am not a predator. I don’t study people to see how I can take advantage of them and abuse them. I morph to remain safe when amongst them. Unlike monsters who use manipulation to conquer and destroy unsuspecting humans.

Unattractive and sick. He knows for certain something is wrong with him. He may admit to feeling like a monster. He may even know he is perceived to be a monster; but he is unable to articulate just what it is about him. Despite knowing something isn’t right with him; he is confounded by the mere suggestion of another, that something is off about his behavior.
The Devil is apt to take offense when confronted; so beware for he is skilled at eluding responsibility and blame. He considers himself more clever than any of the people around him. He will pervert everything in his path in order to make his point.
The Devil is an assessor. He can do so by avoiding your eyes because he fears you will see him for what he is: The Devil.
OR, he will meet your eyes with confidence and dapper charm because he knows you are asleep to his motives. He will derive enjoyment from succeeding in making you his target. Unbeknownst to you, along with his faux friendship and scripted love comes chaos and destruction. His disappearance indicates you’ve grown insipid. . . and he is off to the next.

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